An L-word Promise That Motivates.....

It is the damn word all yearn to have, especially those newly afoot into that little thing. 

It was 2011. May, 27, the starting point. No exact time recorded! 

“I think it will be time for you to say that to me, honey.”

“Not yet,” comes a reply, “We’ll see and hear. We just start, hey!" 

"But? Um, I have done this a lot to prove my..." to which a reply cut through: C'mon! It will be time, just like you say; not now, though. I do want to but, um......

"Promise me, okay? I'll get to you again on New Year's eve when we are going to hold hands, walking under the lighted breezy street. Then, you will have to go with the reality: you and I, forever." 

Riya, now a bit touched, okayed, smilingly.  

9 Melodious Songs to Chill Out on Sunday

I have been away for a while from this little forlorn meek blog and if you have been suspecting where I have been and whom I have been dating, busy-ness has been filling the spot. 

Honestly, I have been staring at the blank page and thinking of what to write. A short story, came the first thought. Some more ideas just keep flickering inside my head. The ideas flooded and, to a level, bored, I almost logged out. 

I then finalized a topic for this post. Let's just silentivate all the thoughts, get the earplugs and shut the world off. 9 songs below should be enough. 

That's Life.....

The sun was almost out; the dawn was still taking its very breath and cuddling up with the hissing February wind that was bringing along slight heat as it came and went. Cars came and passed, with whirling light, pressing mercillessly on the crooked lifeless road that was pretending. The weather outside was not so certain and the man inside was not caring either. He was focusing his now-disturbed mind on something else, something special. And, something troubled. And something that had not left his mind. Something that was only healed. It had been almost 20 years and the only thing he knew too well was the fact that no matter how much he had tried to act normally, he was still living his days and that he had no issues with that "normal" living was now not hiding anymore.  

"It's coming back again, really?" They were fighting once again after the long-sitting settle-down  that was then for-good broached and coaxed by the then desperate man. 

How I Spent The First Morning of February

It was Saturday, 5 a.m, and as I was waken up by the alarming tune to just be reminded that a new day had just started and that it was, once again, time to wake up and live, I didn't feel like getting up. Not at all. My eyes wouldn't open under the influence of the lazing it-is-weekend mood. With sublime rivaling efforts, I managed to pick up my body, pitifully, and get out of the bed. As I hauled out of the net-covered wooden thing, the normality of feeling of the start of a new day was howling besides and, though still sleepily enthused, I took the chance, economically, to just surge in pure nature of the almost-gone dawn. 

That was exactly 5: 05 am of the first day of February, the so-called month of love and Champion League. Also, it is one of the Chinese New Year days and people are expected to go on holidays. Well, Facebook is not lying (if you know what I mean).

41 Random Uneasy Bad-feel Situations in Life

1. Watching him/her walking away and doubting while you're still in the game. 

2. In any competition, facing the truth that you are rejected for the others are better than you. (Yet, awesome only when you can tell yourself: let's forget and move one and work harder.) 

3. Seeing your you-still-love one posting sweet couple photos on Facebook or Instagram. 

4. Wanting to do some certain things but you cannot just because your ego say no. 

5. Having too much work to do in very limited time. 

6. Being unable to speak your thoughts out. 

7. Knowing that your best friends cheating on you. 

8. Finding out you're no longer matter in someone's life who you still think about. 

9. You're far away and physically impossible and your parent(s) is now ailing sick. 

10. Seeing others better than you and they are looking down on you. 

11. People judging you, using their won yardsticks and not even bothering to remember that each person is uniquely gifted. 

12. Walking in a group in which you don't feel any belonging sense. 

13. When your stomach moans and you still have to sit in class. 

14. Seeing your close friends checking in or posting happy photos on Facebook and you are not even informed of the get-together. 

15. "Seen but no reply" message on Facebook. 

16. Not having enough time for your family. 

17.  Not being able to go home for a family lunch on a Saturday. That really sucks. 

18. Not telling her/him you're into him/her and years later finding out that s/he was into you too. Assumption kills, really. 

19. Losing a loved one. 

20. Your teacher punishing you and not the others for the same mistakes you both did.